I Never...

I never thought of
Being here, down through
A part that seem so absurd once from a lifetime

I never thought of
Being somebody with a purpose in life
Seems just yesterday when I started crawling into a whole new world

I never thought of
Meeting someone else
Fell in love and anguish at the same time

Oh dear what I thought is an ancient dreams
Loitering around in my head as years gone by
Never thought that dreams compared to reality
Is like a lullaby comforting an innocent child
That will venture into a harsh territory

I never know that
The sweetness of all sense
Always accompanied with bitterness

I never know that
Someone will always disappear
And loneliness is the reality

I never knew that
Life itself Is an adventure full of test?

Oh dear what I thought is an ancient dreams
Loitering around in my head as years gone by
Never thought that dreams compared to reality
Is like a lullaby comforting an innocent child
That will venture into a harsh territory

Before,
I never for a hundred questions know all the answer
But slowly the reality emerges
And the thoughts appear with a new feeling that reality is better in everything
 Even the simple task seems always have the answer if we know whom to ask for

Remember Him

In Loving Memories of  Josip Aznan Bion

Thank U...

   About 6 months ago i'm buying a new bag, but my husband challenge me to keep the bag from any damage as all of my bag DESTROYED!! by an alien ( hahaha LOL - it's keep tearing apart,and etc i don't know why maybe that im too strong???!! FYI i happened to break a pipe once upon ago...hmmm) So he told me if it's still intact even after used by a troll like human - ME... He will never ever complained whenever i'm buying a bag again (well it's one of my guilty pleasures) and he will give me a suprise gift . So i did forget about the challenge... i mean totally forgot it, anyway my bag is still intact right now.. so yesterday as i came back from da' rural area of my workplace ( i work where the road is still gravel and it's taken about 2 hours to get out from there using a really decent transportation ) Ok enough about that, suddenly my husband told me he got a gift for me, i kinda feel sorry for him but happy as the same time because my husband works where the payment isn't really enough but still manage to make for our own living... he presented me with a new phone ( eventhough it's a 2011 year release it's still new enough for me and syukur alhamdulilah for Allah SWT rezeki )
A Samsung Galaxy S2...well i'm not much of a person who is addicted with technologies, what i mean is i already thankful of what i got and if it still edible, there's no need to change anything as currently i'm using Nokia brand C6 and for me it's still good. Actually i kinda wanted a box of tool ( hammer,nails and etc) for my 26th this September but im still happy for this gift..thank you dear husband i really appreciate it.

DREAMLESS Book Trailer

                                              This is the sequel to Stracrossed.. the book i mention before http://dejayana.blogspot.com/2012/09/readreadread.html , but no spoilers.. here's a sneak peek from youtube, enjoy.

Updating my blog

Asalamualaikum all ..
Im just finishing the last touch of decorating my blog...fuuuhh....I think it's too crowded hahaha
anyway thanks a lot too http://jombinabelog.blogspot.com/ for so many freebies and tutorial.
For the newbie you can check out the link that i just gave you..Sayonara

Journey of Yesterday

Yesterday

I step into a journey

Once I’ve never ride before

Cloudy sky high up above

Bestowing me

To start the day with a simple pray

Yesterday

Flowing through an endless way

Rippling the golden silk below

Showing a piece of nature

With the ray of sun lighting upon 
 

Yesterday

Filled with an immense joy

Throughout the stream echoes of the birds followed

Telling us story

Of how they lived amidst in the misty woods

Yesterday

Only god appear in my mind

Of how an ensemble art

Makes me ashamed

Makes me wonder

Why letting go of him all this times

Yesterday

The swaying of the boat

The sinking piece of wood

Slowly disappearing

An ache form in me

Of how fragile things could be

Yesterday

A promise made within me

Of how a life should be lived

Humble isn’t just a word

Forgiving isn’t just to be told

It’s for us to reach the gift that has always been there

Read..Read..Read !!!!

     I rarely typing any of my words into this blog, exception for my poems. So today i kinda wanted to write about READ!!!!!..Woah haha!! Currently eventhough im already 26 at september, im still worshiping over YA novels!! Ughh how weird is that? I dont really care maybe i like those type of stories as oppose to my life right know..
     There is this one book i currrently reading now it's by Josephine Angelini Starcrossed. http://www.josephineangelini.com via mobile ebook actually, but damned those mobiles24 already stopped uploading any ebook..Regretful for those whom experience the same thing. This books is about Greeks Mythology god & godesses ( not frickin believin any of those MYTH..) only surrendering to the good looks and superpowers..hahaha just kidding. Actually its called demigod or Scion ( when human + Greek god  = demigod )  . This book is so delicously addicting added with hatred at the intro of the relationship between Helen & Lucas, maybe the paranormal+fantasy+romance booklovers will say this story is cliche.. but it's a really good book & recommended to all the PTR booklovers. So no spoilers and enjoy this book, you will be hooked and like myself insanely searching for the 2nd Book..enjoy( hahaha hope more words from me, not really a writer but who cares?!!! HAHAHA!!! ) peace..

Hey Little Sister

Hey little sister

What’s have you been up to?

Do you still remember him?

The one who sit you on his lap

Sing you a song until the rooms filled up with your laughter

Hey little sister

Do you ever wonder?

What does it feel?

To call for him

Even it’s only for your own selfish reason

Hey little sister

Do you feel the anger?

Do you feel the sadness?

When you turn around calling out for him

Only an empty space remains

Dear little sister

Don’t be sad

Don’t forget it          

What you feel is the remembrances

Of how someone precious to you has lived

Let always remember him

As someone who has cared and love us

Until we met him again someday

Hey little sister

Does the pain still obvious?

Even when 15 years has passed?

Seems like the clocks ticking slowly

Because his warmth still lingered

Hey little sister

Would you miss him?

Whenever years gone by?

Don’t forget

Because we are whom he has only left

Hey little sister

Does your heart still ache?

Do you still love him?

If yours feeling silently echoing to him

Then don’t let him slipped away from your mind

Dear little sister

Don’t be sad

Don’t ever forget it

What you feel is the remembrances

Of how someone precious to you has lived

Let always remember him

As someone who has cared and love us

Until we met him again someday