Childhood Crush

I still remember
When i first stepped on the brown pathway
The feels of adventure arising
But stilled..
There is a a doubt suddenly appear

I still remember
The leaves on the ground
Showing me the art of nature
Mellowing my heart
So i could put up on a courage to go through

I still remember
You standing in front of me
I kept on staring
Wondering where were you from
It feels like the music around me started to play

I still remember
Every time i saw you
My heart flutter
My stomach flying with a butterfly inside
Wondering if you ever thinking of me

I still remember
The smallest gesture from me to you
And from you to me
We were having a light dancing
All through our youth

I still remember
When we were staring at each other eyes
Even if it is only for a second
I feel it forever in my heart
Even when my eyes closed still

I still remember it
Even the youth is long gone
Even if our moments lost for yesteryear
Even if you forger about it
It still instilled deep in my heart

I still remember you
As someone who let me knows what loves mean
As someone who i have only saw briefly in my life
As someone who i once miss with all my heart
As someone who once have all my heart but didn't know it even when i take it back
As someone who gives me courage even when you are afar

Sometimes i did see you
In the present day when all we thought and hope
Doesn't happen as we wished
But sometimes what didn't happen
Is what strengthen our life force
Because the memories and remembrances
Is what makes us today

And i will always remember you
Remembering the words that i never said to you
Remembering you as a part once in my heart
Even when you forget about me...

Agony That Forget..

It's been 3 years
The thought that all lead to happiness
But i was naive
Never knew until the impact of the reality
Finally subside within me

Sometimes it feels like a nightmare
To hopes that i will awake and saw only the enchanted world
In reality it seems the dream is endlessly
But i never thought it's the words of a broken men

Suprising yet saddening
Surpassing yet it is stilled
Hope with a pray
The only thing i could conjure

Silence..
Said the cloaked human
I am the one who reside inside you
That makes your mind spinning yet it is not
And the choices from you
That will settled it down

The words echoed through my brains
What are this words that i wrote
Is it the words of the broken men ?
Or the wisdom from the cloaked human ?
But i know deep within me
It's an imaginary paradise to run from the pain of reality..

Creation from The Sketch!..

Asalamualaikum..
I started to draw when im still in primary school..i like to draw manga ( esp )..but currently i tried using the sketch software from my Galaxy Samsung S2..and here it is...Ta daa!!!

This one i called " Red Love Artsy "

And here is the " The Green Love "

This one called " Love Star "

Well there is more but depending on my mood i will show them ..ok just here for today thanks..

The One Manhua by Nicky Lee

     KUDOS!!!!!
It's for Nicky Lee a Taiwanese Manhua Artist
I really like the concept, storyline, the character and blah blah blah....etc...it's been what 2 years already?? I'm following this manhua..it's a story about a girl journey through the fashion world as an eccentric( compares to the other model ), funny, brave and brightly model. The author have her own twist in creating the possibility, emotional and comedic drama, and the main girl love story. It is fresh and highly entertaining ( for the josei manga and manhua fans )..i really love this manhua and already downloaded it and re - read it again and again...sorry no spoilers but here is the picture..

This is picture of Eros Lanson & Lele Cane

The twins Angus & Eros

New Year Hmmmm....I'm Buzy Surfing the Net

         Asalamualaikum wbt and good day to all of you who currently blogwalking ... and have nothing better to do & then again suddenly stumble my blog. Currently it's 9.38 pm on Friday night just lazying around .. It's actually new year already..What the heck... happy new year everyone!!!!
         I was watching tv when they showed this web about cat ... here is the link http://catmoji.com/ it's about cat.........well obviously why do they have to put the "cat " as their web name if it isnt for cat right?..
         My favourite Youtube series as intro to this new year is the Asia's Next Top Model
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10tXhudxHZs&list=PLnD5BMNjvFenq4u1CKhZJLeBWTCL94RVh&index=4
Well of course i'm supporting Melissa .. you go girl.!! That's about it..
         3 day s ago my husband was trying to make a funny quote on my facebook..it's like this..( I'm frantically searching for keys..it's a key full of mini doll e.g a koala with a cute blue australian shirt and the nine tails in Naruto manga..and suddenly he comes up with something evil vs funny i don't know which... he tells me to call my keys...of course i grab my phone and started searching with the letter K in front...............Please guys i'm not that idiot!! ..But my husband put on his wall that i really did it...what the heck..)
        Okey that's all i can think about right now...hopes the new years will bring all of us good luck..MUAHH!!!!

I Never...

I never thought of
Being here, down through
A part that seem so absurd once from a lifetime

I never thought of
Being somebody with a purpose in life
Seems just yesterday when I started crawling into a whole new world

I never thought of
Meeting someone else
Fell in love and anguish at the same time

Oh dear what I thought is an ancient dreams
Loitering around in my head as years gone by
Never thought that dreams compared to reality
Is like a lullaby comforting an innocent child
That will venture into a harsh territory

I never know that
The sweetness of all sense
Always accompanied with bitterness

I never know that
Someone will always disappear
And loneliness is the reality

I never knew that
Life itself Is an adventure full of test?

Oh dear what I thought is an ancient dreams
Loitering around in my head as years gone by
Never thought that dreams compared to reality
Is like a lullaby comforting an innocent child
That will venture into a harsh territory

Before,
I never for a hundred questions know all the answer
But slowly the reality emerges
And the thoughts appear with a new feeling that reality is better in everything
 Even the simple task seems always have the answer if we know whom to ask for

Remember Him

In Loving Memories of  Josip Aznan Bion